傻人

就算让你知道一切....拥有一切又怎样....一定会快乐?那些说拥有一切还有时间的人真的很迂腐

没尝试过空虚感的人....是不知道那种感觉有多难受...哪怕时间只剩下那两年...我也希望能尽量做我最想做的事情而不是拥有!

对...贫穷和富有...我也会选择富有.....可是我相信这个世界上是有等价交换的东西...

我有试过问我表弟表哥....如果cindy那件事...让我真的做了傻事,他们会怎么想啊...给的答案往往都是预料之中,可是实际上是真的吗?

我变得很难相信一个人....其实我很痛苦....这个微笑的面具...背后总隐藏着悲哀....

bad dream...

i have a dream last night....

i donno heard some1 said that i must go for a trip....i go with my cousin....but follow cindy group....i ask many ppl and try to chat with other...but no 1 willing to bother me...in dream....i know is she tell them my relationship with her....so they treat me like this....

i feel so frustrated...why i not dare to run away but still keep following them....i wake up....when i realise that just a dream i feel better....so i go on to sleep....but the dream is still continue and more terrify....

i saw her and him together....did the thing that we used to do when together....i can feel my heart was pain even in dream...cant hold my tear....then i wake up....in reality,i really drop tear....

is that mean i cant forget about her still care about that....?

i feel helpless....

lol is my symbol =)

today she ask me....why i lol???i have been thinking about this....

coz when i was remind back then...no matter is happy....or unhappy....i always will type this word...its seems this word can cover my sadness....i used it....started from january 29th...

in other way.....i smile to face everything....smile is my comity to treat every1 =)

=)

finally..i delete my fb....

it feel so free and comfort....haha..i think....nobody else will see my blog ever....(maybe not even care about it)...haha

anyway....single life....

dont want then dont want,no need using fake face infront me

FB for me not only hatred...but more than hatred ! !

if my life is really don have a human being that treat me as friend,is ok,coz i used to be alone since i was child...

yeah....i'm free...u know how long did i hold it inner me????

now is ok....no need hold it anymore !!!

yes is u!!can u see my word and my pose?! look carefully !!!! i show u !



o0o NAH ! HAM KA CHAN !!! YUCK SHIT LA !!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !!!! I NOT EVEN REGRET FOR GOING TAIWAN AT ALL !! FUCKER !! HOPE U 2 FAST FAST IN COFFIN !!! DONT WORRY I SURE WILL COME FOR UR SWEET FUNERAL !!!
IF CAN JUZ LET ME SHIT ON UR FACE BE4 U LYE IN THERE ! BITCH !

回忆~

记得小学二年级下半年的时候...发生了我毕生之中难忘的东西...也使人对碰我的头很反感...

那个时候...我还是读着下午班,所以至少每天早晨11.30要到学校去,因为12.30会有一堂补习班,那天是补国语的...cikgu amir 是教我的马来文老师,可是当天...因为昨晚迟睡的关系...我睡眠不好...所以看不清楚也找不到国语的作业...我就只是拿着一本小簿子进去...我隔壁的同学变share给我看...老师还没发现我没书...直到要下课了,老师要求全体同学交上作业,我便上前去跟老师说我没带,我明天会交的....老师便破口大骂说我为什么那么久都没说,说真的...当时有几位同学也是没交的...可是为什么他只骂我呢??其实我介意的并不是这个....而是过后...他很用力的敲我的头,然后问我...痛吗?我说痛...他就说这些又懂的说???

然后他便罚我站在可是的门口旁...吩咐班上34位同学,一靠近我时便敲我的头...然后一个个同学便开始一个接一个地敲我头...34位里....只有那7位同学,并不用力敲我的头...其他都敲我头...我不知道我做了什么....如果是朋友...为什么这么对我??

在被人敲到一半的时候...我哭了....并不是因为痛而哭...因为小小的我....就已经了解什么叫做羞辱...

从那天起,我根本不愿意让人摸我头...

内疚

刚刚老婆被哥哥和姐姐训了一顿.....我很内疚...如果不是我硬要说见她...老婆便不会有事了.
刚刚陪朋友,也只是强颜欢笑,好辛苦...
不懂应该做什么...睡不着...除了担心她...什么都坐不了.....