after the gathering

yesterday that gathering...is worst><....its feel like taxi journey all the time...i used quite much money just for the taxi tax >
after i go back home...i remind back what they said juz now.....they ask me why i still kept that ring she gave me and still wearing on it...maybe for other...i still holding her all the time...but me...its just like...not until i met the 1 who can help me remove it...i will still caring it...=)

i was so tired....and sleep too early just now....now woke up at midnight....and writing this post...lolz....i cant even feel my leg at all....i so boring now...in this silent night....what i hope just...chat with a person....

错觉

有时候想....为什么她即使对我这样我还要找无理的借口来维护她....可能她是唯一一个异性....曾经如此关心我...

虽然现在已经没机会看到她了...不过还是祝她幸福好了....除此之外也没什么能做了

gathering~

is like about few day continue gathering....=)....today..is my another group for gathering..=) a group that accompany me 5 years =)...with them...i wont feel any pressure,ya...i like that kind of feel..=)it make me feel comfort and relax....hope later we guys can enjoy the gathering time^^

我真的是那麼的殘忍嗎?

剛剛開了這個新blog沒多久,就看看別人的blog.看到我其中一個朋友的blog,他的好友里有hanasakura的blog,這就是她曾經跟我說過的新blog,剛開始我以為我看到過後又會好像一樣,情緒瘋狂....可是我異常的冷靜,慢慢的看完她的blog,想不到...在一月7號的時候她就已經一腳踏兩船了,心痛了一下..只是想不到她那時還是當做沒事一樣欺騙著我,我沒多說什麽...我也沒後悔過跟她交往,至少她讓我上了一課...黑與白真的能掉轉,錯的當成是對的,對的卻變成錯的....

我並沒有像以前一樣,控制不了情緒,把瘋狂的情緒都發在自己身上...就是你們所謂的自虐啊.以前不會想...現在並不同了...感覺思想忽然到了另一個層次...

浪費了半年在這段對方付出的假情意....也是時候醒了...

謝謝我的每一位朋友....雖然我都沒跟你們說...你們都知道我是個怕肉麻的人..但是我真的很開心...在被傷害的這段時間...誰對我好...誰真正的關心我...我還是會分的出的...謝謝你們 =)

when that things is come to me in january....i already decide that if i wont care that anymore....i will cr8 a new blog....now this is my new blog...congratz to myself hooraay!!^^